Dear Abby,
I can't believe it's been three years since I held you and kissed your sweet face for the first and last time. Some days it feels like it was yesterday and other days it feels like it was a lifetime ago. Sometimes it even feels like it was all just a bad dream, even if only for a moment. How I wish it was just a dream! But you were here and you left a huge imprint on our hearts. We will never be the same. Our lives were changed forever the day you were born. You were so beautiful and perfect. We felt like we would never heal from your death. While time has helped ease our pain, we still miss you so much. There will always be an empty place in our hearts that only you can fill. We will always wonder what life would have been like if you had stayed. Especially for your big brother who misses you so much. You would have been such good buddies. I miss that I don't get to see you growing up together and that you never got to play together. His love for you is so tender and sweet. He asked to have a framed picture of you in his room for Christmas this year. It was so sweet. I am glad he remembers. This morning he asked us, very eagerly, "are we going to send balloons to Abby today?" He was actually excited it was your birthday and to do something to remember you. We released three pink balloons and three white balloons. I hope you saw them! And I hope you know how much we love you and can't wait until the day we will see you and hold you and kiss your precious face again when we are all together in Heaven. That is our HOPE ... that we will see you and on that day our family circle will be complete, never to be broken again. Happy Birthday precious, sweet daughter. I love and miss you so much ...
Love,
Mommy
